Wednesday, November 12, 2008

So, this is what I'm thinking...

About my daughter and this life. My precious, shining son. And how it's all unfolding in ways I would never have guessed in a hundred million years.

About deciding we should all make a "bucket list" for my little girl, so that we get to do the things we want to with her before she dies. My wish to minimize regrets for all of us as much as possible to facilitate the grieving that will hurt so much when she is gone.

About how my son amazes me endless people and is the line that keeps me plugged into Life. He's THE reason I breathe. And how I watch his dad fuck things up.

About how I am wondering if I will find a way to continue to live in the marriage that created these little people that mean so much to me. If I can hold out living with my daughter's father until she passes away so that neither of us miss a moment with her.